Should You See a Psychiatrist? Mental Health Concerns - Psychiatry

Should I see a psychiatrist?

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Since childhood, there have been various conflicts at home, sometimes escalating into hysterical arguments with my mother.
After each fight, I feel terrified, as if the person who was yelling and throwing things is not really me.
Normally, I smile and seem unbothered, but whenever my mother goes into a rage, I also become hysterical.
This continued until three years ago when my father moved into a nursing home.
My mother, who suffers from depression, initially argued with me but gradually became less confrontational over the next two years.
I felt she was sorry for me, which made me feel very lonely.
She often stayed locked in her room but occasionally sent me negative messages through LINE.
Her friends also disappeared, often asking me about my parents' situation.
My mother told me to take care of myself and manage my own burdens, so I took on all responsibilities except for rent.
Everyone says I am strong and filial, encouraging me to help my mother recover.
Last year, I surprised her for her birthday, and she cried, although her face was still pale.
Since then, she has occasionally joined me for meals and sent messages, mostly negative but showing some improvement.
However, the day before her birthday, I visited my father, whom I hadn’t seen in a long time and thought I hated.
I broke down and asked him to write "Happy Birthday" for my mother.
The next day, I surprised her again for her birthday, and her friends said she looked much better.
She hugged me and cried, acknowledging my struggles.
I also broke down, but she seemed to be doing a bit better.

Recently, I have been feeling unwell.
I thought it was due to the side effects of the medication for my hives, but at school, my friends said I looked like I was about to faint, and even the instructor commented on my pale appearance.
I told him I had a severe headache and felt dizzy.
He thought my hands and feet were too cold and suggested a brain scan.
Over the past few days, I noticed that whenever I am in crowded places, I start sweating profusely, my heart races, and I feel nauseous.
My friends often tell me to stay away from them, but when they ignore that and come close, I inexplicably get angry.
I am afraid to tell my mother about this, fearing she might think it’s her fault, so I chose to confide in my boyfriend instead.
He understands my family situation but believes I should go to a major hospital for a physical check-up rather than seeing a psychiatrist.
He wants to help me, but I often refuse, leading to some arguments.
I have started to question what is wrong with me; I don’t want to be seen as neurotic.
I even joked with my friends that I might have social anxiety, which they dismissed as nonsense.
I wonder if I am overthinking or if there is a real issue.
Now, I am more worried because I have to attend my graduation ceremony, where I will receive an award.
However, I fear that my suspicions about my condition might be correct, and I don’t know what to do.

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Xuan Xuan, 10~19 year old female. Ask Date: 2016/05/22