Concerns About Anxiety and Sleep Medication Dependency - Psychiatry

Fear of addiction to anxiolytics and sleep medications?

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Hello Doctor: Since I got married, I have hardly spent a night away from home (7 years).
My parents have passed away, and although I have siblings, our relationships are quite distant and we rarely keep in touch.
Therefore, I spend the New Year at home.
My family runs a motorcycle shop in the suburbs, mainly serving college students and neighbors, but we don't have many customers.
My husband often goes to his friends' houses for other work.
I manage the shop every day from 8 AM to 10 PM, and my husband usually returns around dinner time to do some work in the shop.
We don't have children; I tried but eventually gave up, as I felt like I was alone in the shop every day.
I often resort to online shopping and playing games to avoid feeling like I'm imprisoned at home.
My husband is a workaholic and only takes 3 or 4 days off during the Lunar New Year; otherwise, he just wants to work and earn money.
I have to negotiate with him about going out, and when I return, he always gives me a cold shoulder.
He also treats my friends poorly when they come to repair their bikes or buy new ones.
I don't understand why this is happening.
I've argued with him about it, but there's still no resolution.

In January of this year, my sister had surgery (total hysterectomy) and asked for my help in taking care of her because her husband is not good at looking after patients.
I was actually quite happy to leave the house, having been cooped up for so long.
I asked my husband for 5 days off (during the winter break, when there are usually no customers, and he is often not around since customers typically schedule appointments for the evening).
I thought the shop could take a break during the day while he could still work.
On the fifth day, my sister said she was still uncomfortable and wanted to stay for two more days.
I called home to tell him, and he got very angry, saying I was preventing him from working.
I was also upset because my sister was sick, and I wasn't out having fun.
The phone call was very unpleasant, and we hung up.
Later, the doctor said we couldn't waste medical resources, so we were discharged on the fifth day, and I returned home as planned.
I called him to say I was back, and he said he would take me out for a big dinner.
I felt resentful and said no.
When I got home, I expressed my frustration about how I had prevented him from working, and I couldn't let it go.
Naturally, I was unwilling to engage in sexual relations with him because I was in a bad mood.
He thought I was doing it on purpose, saying he treats me poorly every day (I've been dealing with his attitude for 7 years...).

Since then, I suddenly started experiencing pain in my jaw.
I initially thought it was a result of my previous love for Thai dried squid.
I went to a nearby clinic, where they prescribed muscle relaxants and painkillers.
I experienced pain when opening and closing my mouth, or it would make a popping sound.
I researched online and suspected it was related to my temporomandibular joint, so I went to an ENT specialist.
The pain fluctuated, and later a nurse friend suggested I see an oral surgeon (I forgot the full name).
I never found the time to go.
In June, I told my husband I would be going to the south to visit my sister for three days in August.
The jaw pain continued intermittently, and during severe pain episodes, I would get muscle relaxants and painkillers from the nearby clinic.
Until I went to the south for three days in August, the intermittent jaw pain suddenly disappeared after 8 months.
When I returned and explained this to my doctor, he pointed out that it might be due to stress that I wasn't consciously aware of, which could have been released during sleep, causing me to unconsciously clench my jaw.
I realized how much stress I had been under.
The doctor prescribed me Anbong tablets to take one before bed every night, and the jaw pain has not recurred.
However, my husband's verbal abuse has become increasingly severe.
Sometimes after an argument, he expects sexual relations that night, even when I'm still upset.
He just says I'm being difficult.
I told him that women are not inclined to engage in such activities when they are upset, but he doesn't understand and only wants to have sex.
Not engaging with him only makes him more unhappy, which is frustrating.
So, I have given up on myself, using lubricant just to please him.
I don't want to argue anymore; fighting is exhausting.

I've been taking Anbong for almost two months, but recently I've started having trouble sleeping again.
While I can fall asleep easily, I wake up whenever he rolls over and touches me, resulting in poor sleep quality.
The doctor advised me to take two Anbong tablets and one sleep aid an hour and a half before bed.
This way, I wouldn't be disturbed during sleep, but I still wake up after five hours and feel like I haven't slept at all during the day, leaving me very fatigued.
Friends have advised me to see a specialist in psychosomatic medicine.
During the consultation, the doctor didn't ask me anything, and I didn't know where to start, so I just described my situation.
The psychosomatic doctor prescribed me seven doses of Lian Duo Mian and said I could decide whether to continue taking Anbong (the local clinic had prescribed it to me for three months as a chronic prescription).
I'm afraid of becoming dependent or addicted to these medications because I know my husband won't change, and the root of my stress will always be there.
Is it really okay to keep relying on these medications? My friends keep saying sleeping pills are bad, and the decision of whether to take them or not makes me even more anxious.

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hen wu nai, 40~49 year old female. Ask Date: 2016/12/10