Emotional Attachment: Is It Homosexuality or Something Else?

Q: Emotional Attachment: Is It Homosexuality or Something Else?

Hello： It's difficult to definitively say yes or no in such situations; human emotions can sometimes be hard to categorize. <br>Each person is unique, and the interactions between individuals are also one-of-a-kind and difficult to classify. <br>I suggest not to be overly anxious

This isn't homosexuality, right?

I would like to ask the doctor if I have homosexual tendencies, or if this is considered abnormal.
Thank you for taking the time to answer! I am 20 years old and have liked my middle school female teacher for 5-6 years.
Personally, I do not like yuri or GL content, and I do not have sexual fantasies about her (my sexual fantasies are about men).
However, I have read a lot of information online that describes liking someone as wanting to miss them, wanting to message them, wanting to share delicious food or scenery, and being able to quickly find them in a crowd.
I relate to all of these feelings.
When I have physical contact with my teacher, I feel happy; when she messages me, my heart races; I find myself smiling at my phone screen while chatting; when I travel abroad, I want to bring her gifts and fantasize about traveling together; I search for and remember her information; when I'm sad, I want her to comfort me; I often reminisce about our experiences together and keep her handouts or the first Ferrero Rocher wrapper she gave me (as encouragement for scoring above 90 in class).
I enjoy visiting her at school but worry that she might find me annoying; I hope that when she gets older, I can take care of her like family.
I feel that she holds the top position in my heart, and I think...
perhaps it’s because she is a teacher and not a friend, making the unattainable feel even better.
I don’t feel the same way about friends; at least I don’t search for their information online.
To be honest, my friendships are not very typical, and my definition of friends is quite unusual.
I only have one friend outside of my relatives (not including teachers), and I don’t like making friends (if I don’t genuinely invest, then they aren’t friends).
The teacher is about the same age as my mother, and she probably sees me more as a daughter than a friend! In middle school, she would greet me in the hallway and sometimes stop by my desk to check on me.
I once took six months to go back and find her, and at that moment, I felt a rekindling of feelings...
(my heart felt warm again).
I think my feelings for her might not align with the general perception of same-sex friendships, but I do not have sexual fantasies about her!!! I don’t want to kiss her! Also, I don’t consider myself a T, nor do I like GL or BL.
So...
is this just a stronger attachment than friendship? But it feels somewhat like how I would feel about a boyfriend...
I don’t want to see her as a romantic partner, but according to public perception, my feelings for her are similar to those for a lover.
I don’t want to be labeled as homosexual (or bisexual); I interpret this as a different kind of familial love.
Can you help clarify this for me? Thank you again for taking the time to read this lengthy message!

Dàxuéshēng, 20~29 year old female. Ask Date: 2017/01/19

Dr. Liang Sunyuan reply Psychiatry

Hello: It's difficult to definitively say yes or no in such situations; human emotions can sometimes be hard to categorize.
Each person is unique, and the interactions between individuals are also one-of-a-kind and difficult to classify.
I suggest not to be overly anxious or nervous at this moment.
As time passes and life experiences expand, you will gain more clarity.
If you currently feel that it is not the case, trust your intuition and focus on experiencing and nurturing your present life.
If you're uncertain, that's okay too; with more time, you may find greater clarity.
Wishing you all the best.

Reply Date: 2017/01/19

More Info

Understanding emotional attachment, especially in the context of same-sex relationships, can be complex and nuanced. Based on your description, it seems you are experiencing a strong emotional bond with your former teacher, which you are trying to categorize within the frameworks of sexuality and attachment styles.
Firstly, it’s important to recognize that emotional attachment can manifest in various forms and does not always align neatly with sexual orientation. Your feelings towards your teacher appear to be characterized by admiration, affection, and a desire for connection, which are common in many types of relationships, including platonic ones. The fact that you do not have sexual fantasies about her and do not identify with labels such as "lesbian" or "bisexual" suggests that your feelings may not fit into traditional definitions of sexual attraction.

Your attachment to this teacher seems to be more about emotional closeness rather than sexual desire. You express feelings of joy when interacting with her, a desire to share experiences, and a longing for her comfort during difficult times. These behaviors can indicate a deep emotional bond, often referred to as "attachment," which can be similar to familial love or a strong friendship.
In psychological terms, attachment theory posits that our early relationships with caregivers shape how we form bonds with others throughout our lives. Your feelings towards your teacher may stem from a secure attachment style, where you feel safe and valued in her presence. This can lead to a desire for closeness and connection that might be misinterpreted as romantic or sexual attraction, especially in a society that often conflates emotional intimacy with romantic feelings.

It’s also worth noting that the age difference and the teacher-student dynamic can complicate feelings of attachment. The admiration you feel for her, combined with her nurturing behavior, may amplify your emotional response. This is not uncommon in teacher-student relationships, where students often develop strong attachments to educators who provide support and encouragement.

Your concern about whether these feelings indicate a homosexual inclination is understandable, especially given societal norms and expectations. However, it’s crucial to remember that attraction and attachment are not binary. Many people experience deep emotional connections with individuals of the same sex without it being sexual or romantic in nature.
If you find that these feelings are causing you distress or confusion, it might be helpful to speak with a mental health professional. They can provide a safe space to explore your feelings and help you understand them better without the pressure of labels.
In conclusion, your feelings towards your teacher seem to reflect a strong emotional attachment rather than a sexual attraction. This attachment can be interpreted as a form of love that is not necessarily romantic or sexual. It’s perfectly normal to have deep emotional connections with people, and these connections can take many forms. Understanding and accepting your feelings as they are, without the need to fit them into a specific category, can lead to greater self-acceptance and peace of mind.

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