What is happening to me? Is it dissociation? Thought disorder? Am I just overthinking?
Since last November, I have been experiencing self-harm behaviors that have become increasingly intense and deeper.
Self-harm provides me with a sense of calm and a feeling of clarity, and I find it difficult to stop.
I engage in self-harm about four to five times a week.
Additionally, I often have impulses to engage in dangerous behaviors at night, such as breaking things or harming others.
I have researched related information online and was surprised to find that I exhibit symptoms consistent with autonomic nervous system dysregulation and psychotic disorders.
I frequently feel anxious in crowded situations or under stress, experiencing difficulty breathing.
However, I often feel mentally foggy and my thoughts drift away.
At night, I tend to ruminate, especially on negative thoughts.
Sometimes, while walking, I feel a sense of unreality.
My family situation is that of a single-parent household, and my family has high expectations of me.
I often experience emotional instability, and even minor mistakes can lead to harsh criticism, which deeply hurts me and causes significant emotional pain.
I would like to ask the doctor what might be happening to me.
Chen Huiwu, 10~19 year old female. Ask Date: 2024/03/22
Dr. Liang Sunyuan reply Psychiatry
Hello, Huiwu: Self-harm is often associated with depression, high stress, and difficulty in coping with irritability.
In your description, you mentioned symptoms such as depression, anxiety, and dissociation, along with a background that has experienced considerable stress.
Your personal traits make you sensitive to criticism.
You may recognize that writing this letter could be the beginning of change.
It is advisable to seek professional help and discuss treatment options in person.
Additionally, I recommend developing healthy lifestyle habits, such as maintaining a regular routine, having a balanced diet, exercising regularly, and making friends.
By taking a multifaceted approach, you can gradually become the person you aspire to be.
Reply Date: 2024/03/22
More Info
It sounds like you are experiencing a complex interplay of emotions and behaviors that are deeply affecting your mental health. Self-harm, as you described, is often a coping mechanism for emotional distress. It can provide a temporary sense of relief or clarity, but it is crucial to understand that it is not a healthy or sustainable way to manage overwhelming feelings. The fact that you are engaging in self-harm multiple times a week indicates that you are in a state of significant emotional turmoil.
Your mention of feeling detached or dissociated, especially in stressful situations or when surrounded by people, is also concerning. Dissociation can manifest as a feeling of being disconnected from oneself or one’s surroundings, and it often occurs as a response to trauma or extreme stress. Given your background of high expectations and emotional instability within your family, it is understandable that you might be feeling overwhelmed.
The symptoms you describe, including anxiety, difficulty breathing, and negative thoughts, suggest that you may be dealing with anxiety disorders or even depressive symptoms. The pressure you feel from your family, combined with your own expectations, can create a cycle of stress that exacerbates these feelings. It’s important to recognize that these experiences are valid and that seeking help is a strong and positive step.
Here are a few recommendations based on your situation:
1. Seek Professional Help: It is crucial to consult with a mental health professional who can provide a safe space for you to express your feelings and experiences. A therapist can help you explore the underlying issues contributing to your self-harm and develop healthier coping strategies. Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT) is often effective for addressing negative thought patterns and behaviors.
2. Establish a Support System: While it may feel challenging, try to reach out to trusted friends or family members who can provide emotional support. Sharing your feelings with someone who understands can alleviate some of the burdens you carry.
3. Develop Coping Strategies: Work with a therapist to identify healthier coping mechanisms. This could include mindfulness practices, journaling, or engaging in creative outlets like art or music, which can serve as a form of expression and release.
4. Educate Yourself: Understanding more about mental health, self-harm, and anxiety can empower you. Knowledge can help demystify your experiences and reduce feelings of isolation.
5. Consider Medication: If your symptoms are severe, a psychiatrist may recommend medication to help manage anxiety or depressive symptoms. This can be an important part of a comprehensive treatment plan.
6. Practice Self-Compassion: Be gentle with yourself. Recognize that you are going through a difficult time, and it’s okay to seek help. Self-criticism can exacerbate feelings of worthlessness and despair.
7. Emergency Support: If you ever feel like you might harm yourself or others, it is essential to seek immediate help. Contact a crisis hotline or go to the nearest emergency room.
In conclusion, your experiences are significant, and it is essential to address them with the help of professionals who can guide you through this challenging time. Remember, you are not alone, and there are people and resources available to support you on your journey to healing.
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